This morning I was invited over to one of our actress's apartment to have brunch with her, her mom and our 2nd AD (assistant director). It was odd that this invite came late last night when I was just realizing as I drank my 3rd Starbuck's coffee of the day that my diet this week has been horrendous. In fact, its almost as though I've entirely forgotten to eat. Other than numerous cups of coffee a day, I haven't had much else. The occasional apple and peanut butter, avocado or assorted other vegetables, but that's it. Yikes. That can't be good. And yet, I'm not hungry. I don't go to catering during lunch anymore. I don't go over to the craft service table very much and when I do it is simply to refill my cup of coffee. I even went and bought decaf coffee so I could have some more when I came home at night without being kept up all night. I'm sure the lack of interest in food will be short lived, at least I hope so. I'm all about trying to lose weight but I don't want to be unhealthy about it either. My mom told me once that when she was younger she had decided eating was a waste of time and she decided to drink her food instead. Maybe that's what I need to do. Make smoothies and drink those and not worry about the fact that I don't want to eat lunch. I weighed myself this morning at the Y and realized I had lost 5lbs this week. While I was excited to be now within only a few pounds of my pre-pregnancy weight, I also knew losing that much weight in one week for someone as small as I am was probably not healthy. Besides, if I can take it off at a reasonable rate per week, I have a better chance of keeping it off.
Despite my lack of hunger, I showed up at Morgan's apartment to at least have some company. This would be my first weekend by myself and I wasn't overly excited about it. You would think that after an hour long class of Zumba I might would have worked up an appetite, but I sure didn't feel like it. Even when I walked in the smell of blueberry pancakes wasn't enough to peak my interest. I did gladly drink some orange juice and chat with Morgan and Kim as Maryann finished the pancakes. I managed to eat a somewhat decent breakfast, but food no longer really has much taste to me. It smells good enough but when I eat, I don't really taste anything. After brunch we went up to Kim's apartment to play with her cats. It made me miss my dogs a little but it was fun to pet her furry friends and laugh at their silliness. Not really wanting to go home and spend the rest of the afternoon by myself, I jumped at the chance to go to Costco with Kim and Maryann while Morgan went to the pool with Morena. I bought some flowers and a book at Costco in the hopes of giving myself something beautiful to look at in my apartment and something fun to read when I am bored and tired of reading of scripts.
Eventually, I had to return home where I spent the rest of the evening lounging around my apartment watching movies. I was really thankful for the company today with these wonderful ladies. They have no idea what they did for me today by keeping me preoccupied and allowing me to enjoy their company. I would gladly eat pancakes every day, taste or no taste, if I could always get this much enjoyment out of the company that comes out of it. Thankfully, Marshall also had great company today as he spent the day on the boat with my Mom and cousin Erika and then went to my Dad's for dinner. Just when I thought he was home for the night I received texts from him and our friend Stacey. Apparently, Marshall had given Susan a ride home from a party and ended up hanging out with some friends at Stacey's. They thought of me when Goyte's song Someone that I Used to Know came on because it's my favorite song right now so they took a picture of themselves with the iPad playing it and sent it to me. It was good to hear Marshall enjoying himself with our friend and I'm glad that he has them to lean on when he needs some positivity and company in his life. While I don't have anyone here that can give me the company and understanding that my friends in Wilmington can, I am at least thankful that I have some girlfriends on the show that invite me out on the weekends to give me something to at least do. Even if it's only to play with cats and eat pancakes.
This morning I was invited over to one of our actress's apartment to have brunch with her, her mom and our 2nd AD (assistant director). It was odd that this invite came late last night when I was just realizing as I drank my 3rd Starbuck's coffee of the day that my diet this week has been horrendous. In fact, its almost as though I've entirely forgotten to eat. Other than numerous cups of coffee a day, I haven't had much else. The occasional apple and peanut butter, avocado or assorted other vegetables, but that's it. Yikes. That can't be good. And yet, I'm not hungry. I don't go to catering during lunch anymore. I don't go over to the craft service table very much and when I do it is simply to refill my cup of coffee. I even went and bought decaf coffee so I could have some more when I came home at night without being kept up all night. I'm sure the lack of interest in food will be short lived, at least I hope so. I'm all about trying to lose weight but I don't want to be unhealthy about it either. My mom told me once that when she was younger she had decided eating was a waste of time and she decided to drink her food instead. Maybe that's what I need to do. Make smoothies and drink those and not worry about the fact that I don't want to eat lunch. I weighed myself this morning at the Y and realized I had lost 5lbs this week. While I was excited to be now within only a few pounds of my pre-pregnancy weight, I also knew losing that much weight in one week for someone as small as I am was probably not healthy. Besides, if I can take it off at a reasonable rate per week, I have a better chance of keeping it off.
Despite my lack of hunger, I showed up at Morgan's apartment to at least have some company. This would be my first weekend by myself and I wasn't overly excited about it. You would think that after an hour long class of Zumba I might would have worked up an appetite, but I sure didn't feel like it. Even when I walked in the smell of blueberry pancakes wasn't enough to peak my interest. I did gladly drink some orange juice and chat with Morgan and Kim as Maryann finished the pancakes. I managed to eat a somewhat decent breakfast, but food no longer really has much taste to me. It smells good enough but when I eat, I don't really taste anything. After brunch we went up to Kim's apartment to play with her cats. It made me miss my dogs a little but it was fun to pet her furry friends and laugh at their silliness. Not really wanting to go home and spend the rest of the afternoon by myself, I jumped at the chance to go to Costco with Kim and Maryann while Morgan went to the pool with Morena. I bought some flowers and a book at Costco in the hopes of giving myself something beautiful to look at in my apartment and something fun to read when I am bored and tired of reading of scripts.
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