Nolan Eason

At 1:03AM on Friday, March 30, 2012 my first child was born - a son. We named him Nolan Eason. 21" long, 5lb 3oz. He was beautiful and perfect in every way, except that he was stillborn. As we searched for answers to his untimely death, we also searched for comfort. This blog was created as a way of working through my sorrow by trying to find something beautiful in the world each day. Hopefully, along the way it will help others to heal as well.

Monday, May 28, 2012

Bloody Mary

It's always a bittersweet end to any long weekend - the thought of going back to work. It is especially difficult when that work takes you away from your home and the ones you love. Such is the case with Marshall right now. Today he had to leave to go back to Charleston, SC to work on Army Wives. In order to not spend the afternoon alone, I headed over to Susan and Stacey's pool to hang out with them and Shea. Sometimes you just need your girl friends and today was one of those days. Thankfully for me, I have amazing girl friends that are always there no matter what. I even had the opportunity to see Shea's mom, sister and nephews for a bit. As with most community pools, there were tons of kids and I worried at first if it was going to bother me. But, a very strong Bloody Mary later and that worry was long gone. Note to self, Stacey makes very strong Bloody Mary's so don't drink them if you are planning on driving anywhere any time soon. Fortunately for me, I was not.










I have never been much of a drinker, mostly because I had very little tolerance for alcohol. A couple of strong drinks in college and I was DRUNK. I do enjoy the occasional buzz but have learned that one glass of wine or one strong Bloody Mary is about my limit. Alcohol can often be a source of solace for people in situations like mine. While my husband doesn't drink at all and I drink very little, it obviously has not been an avenue that either of us have considered. Although, I must admit I have found myself drinking on more occasions than I probably would otherwise even if my drinking is limited to one drink. Alcohol is also something I did not partake in at all while pregnant. I know some people do and some think a glass of wine is okay but I am not one of those people. I believe that if a glass of wine can give me a good buzz, what in the world will it do to my 5lb baby? Since I'm sure Marshall and I will try to have another baby soon, I kind of feel like taking more opportunities to partake in drinking a glass of wine now since I might have to soon give it up again for another 9 months. It's like caffeine in that regard. I have been drinking way more coffee than I ever normally would. I'm a one cup of coffee type of girl, but when I was pregnant I also gave up all caffeine. I occasionally drank a decaf cup of coffee but it just wasn't the same so I eventually said why bother. And so today I not only indulged in a full afternoon of fun, sun, bloody marys and girl time, I capped it off with a cup of coffee. Perhaps that's why I can't seem to go to sleep before 3 am?

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