Nolan Eason

At 1:03AM on Friday, March 30, 2012 my first child was born - a son. We named him Nolan Eason. 21" long, 5lb 3oz. He was beautiful and perfect in every way, except that he was stillborn. As we searched for answers to his untimely death, we also searched for comfort. This blog was created as a way of working through my sorrow by trying to find something beautiful in the world each day. Hopefully, along the way it will help others to heal as well.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Day 2: Identity

Day 2: Identity
Oct 2, 2013

Nolan was born still on March 30, 2012 at 1:03am. He weighed 5lbs 3oz and was 21" long. We named him Nolan Eason McGee. Nolan meaning "noble one" was a name we picked because it was Irish and we simply just liked it. We had gone through baby books and list galore before deciding upon Nolan. We had narrowed it down to Nolan and Miles and decided on Nolan a month or so before he was born but kept the name primarily to ourselves. Eason, also an Irish name, was my mother's (Nolan's maternal grandmother) maiden name. We were sitting at brunch one more in Charlotte, NC, with my cousin Erika discussing possible middle names when I mentioned Eason and Marshall loved it. Erika was the first person to know that was going to be his middle name. When I told my mother what name we had decided, she cried she was so touched that we would have even thought to consider that name. At the time I didn't realize the name was also Irish I just thought it was a cool name and a wonderful tribute to my mom and my grandparents. 

1 year later on March 9, 2013, I gave birth to Nolan's Irish twin. It seemed only fitting that we gave him an Irish name too, thus Ronan Finlay McGee came into our lives. Every day I am saddened that Ronan will never know his big brother Nolan, but we will do everything in our power to make sure that Ronan knows all about Nolan and understands why we celebrate his birthday every year. I know by making the choice to acknowledge Nolan's presence in our life will also cause Ronan to eventually come to us with lots of questions about him and about why he isn't here, but hopefully by the time that occurs we will be in a place in our healing where we can confront those questions with grace.


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