This morning was my last Zumba class for awhile, hopefully. I showered at the Y after class and then went and met Tifni and Mallory at PT's in Leland for lunch. Tifni brought us a present and ended up buying my lunch. Mallory was disappointed to learn the present was going home with me and not back home with her. I had a great time chatting with Tifni and it gave me a lot of comfort to know that she was going to be at the amnio in the morning. She also informed me that Dr. McLean told her to let me know I didn't need to go to the hospital until 6am instead of 5:30am. I will take the extra 30 minutes of sleep time. After lunch I came home and worked on putting the closet doors together. Shea stopped by and brought Scruffy and her Rae Rae necklace to me. When I was in the hospital with Nolan, Shea brought me her teddy bear Scruffy to keep me company while I was there. Shea has had Scruffy since she was a little girl and Scruffy has been through it all so I knew when she first gave him to me how much it meant for her to part with him for a few days. Rae Rae was the daughter of one of Shea's good friends when she was in the military. Rae Rae had died as a young child from cancer. While Shea was in Hawaii this year visiting Rae Rae's parents they had given Shea a necklace that held inside it some of Rae Rae's ashes. I knew how much this necklace meant to Shea and I was honored that she wanted to loan Rae Rae to me so that we would have another angel looking over us during the birth of our baby boy.
I had my 4th Ukulele class tonight. After class Susan and I met Kelly, Stacey and MaryBeth at Hiro after for dinner. Marshall had gotten off work early today so he could drive home and get home at a decent time. Unfortunately, because his replacement didn't get there until later than he had hoped, Marshall didn't get away quite as early as he planned on. He still ended up getting home only about 5 minutes after I did. I let Marshall open the gift Tifni gave us and while most of it was great practical things like diapers, wipes and baby wash there was also a beautiful blue blanket with Ronan's name embroidered on it. I showed Marshall all the improvements I made to the nursery and my consignment sale purchases before we both tried to settle down some and get some sleep before the amnio. I'm a little scared about the pain the amnio might cause but more than anything I'm nervous about the results. I know Marshall isn't going to be happy if we have to wait another week because he will just be sitting around the house not working and waiting. I also really hope we can have the baby this weekend but more because I'm tired of the sleepless nights of worry. I'm ready to be able to sleep albeit sparsely but sleep soundly without worry. Every single night of this pregnancy I wake up, pee and then lay in bed worrying if the baby is okay and just waiting to feel him move. I probably spend just as much time awake and waiting to feel the baby as I do sleeping. Its very disconcerting and I'm so ready to be done with it. I'm ready for him to be out and healthy and safe. Every single night I pray to God that he keeps the baby and myself healthy and allows for an easy and safe delivery of our healthy baby boy. 
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