Cheese Ball

Since I had no appointments to attend to until this afternoon, I slept in until 11am. I had thought about going to Zumba this morning at 9, but when the time came I was just too tired to get my butt up out of bed and motivated to go. I finally managed to motivate around lunchtime as I had no choice but to make it to my 1:30pm hair appointment. Some days are harder than others to motivate and I've found now that I'm off work unless I have somewhere I have to be I can hardly get myself to get out of the house. Once I'm out I'm fairly productive though. For instance today, even though I didn't motivate until lunchtime once I went to my hair appointment I was ready to do something. So, I made a cheese ball for my friend Dawn. She had reconstructive surgery yesterday and she loved the cheese ball I made for our Christmas party so I thought I would make her one and take it to her when she felt up for it. Though it is a pretty easy thing to make, the cheese ball is a messy undertaking. Once it was done and sitting in the refrigerator firming up, I texted Dawn to see how she was. She admitted to being pretty sore still and tired so we made plans to get together tomorrow instead.

Now with nothing to do and nowhere to go I was once again unmotivated to find anything else to do. Instead, I spent the rest of the night hanging out with JoJo and watching TV. I did manage to motivate at one point to do some writing but when I hit a block, instead of trying to push through it I gave up and turned the TV back on. Other than writing my blog, I haven't written much else in the last 9 months so I guess it is going to take some time to get back into it. My mind still wonders pretty easily these days and I find I'm unfocused most of the time. It's a bit disheartening because I once was the type of writer that could lock myself in my room for 3 days and write 100 pages. I'm sure that will come back to me eventually, at least I hope it will. For now I just have to continue to take baby steps in trying to write something other than my feelings, thoughts on the day, expectations and struggles. I eventually gave in and sulked to my bedroom to watch some Dexter. No sooner had I laid down in bed then JoJo hopped up there and snuggled in with me to watch some TV. Dogs always seem to know how and when to make us feel better. Ever since Marshall has been gone she has taken to sleeping on his side of the bed when she normally doesn't sleep on the bed at all. While she might not spend all night there, she gets up there when I first go to bed and she always jumps up in bed in the morning before I get up. Usually, she hears my alarm go off and she immediately jumps in bed before I have a chance to get out. She never wants to miss her morning snuggle time and I certainly do appreciate it.