Nolan Eason

At 1:03AM on Friday, March 30, 2012 my first child was born - a son. We named him Nolan Eason. 21" long, 5lb 3oz. He was beautiful and perfect in every way, except that he was stillborn. As we searched for answers to his untimely death, we also searched for comfort. This blog was created as a way of working through my sorrow by trying to find something beautiful in the world each day. Hopefully, along the way it will help others to heal as well.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Halted Hiatus

Today is the last day of my hiatus. I packed up the car this morning and got everything ready to go. Before I left, Marshall and I went and grabbed lunch at Surfhouse. It was a beautiful day so we sat outside and enjoyed the weather. I almost wish it had been rainy or cold or something. It would have made it a lot easier to leave it wasn't such a nice day. I ran into another fellow crew member that was also leaving for Charlotte later this afternoon.

After lunch I headed out for Charlotte. As I watched Wilmington grow smaller and smaller in my rear view mirror, I grew sadder and sadder. It's hard leaving and heading back to work after being home for 2 weeks with my husband and dogs. My hope is that one day I won't have to leave my house for work. I want a job where I can stay in town and work and only leave town occasionally or for fun. I don't know if that will ever happen but with a baby on the way it makes me want it even more. I want to be able to work my baby to sleep every night in the recliner in our nursery. I want our baby to feel like our house is its home, not just a place we visit sometimes in between working out of town.

When I got into Charlotte, I stopped by the office to do some prep work. I said my hellos and quickly retreated back to my apartment, grabbing dinner on the way. I finished up some prep work back at the apartment and then tried to settle in for the night. It's hard to sleep in the apartment the first night back. It feels so quiet and lonely. Fortunately, Marshall and the dogs are heading up here tomorrow. I can't wait to see them! I miss them terribly already!




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